¡Hola Mi Familia y Todos los demas! :)
During this week I have thought a lot about what I would say to you all in my letter. As I look back on the week I feel like as always this week has probably been one of the weeks of biggest growth in my mission. It was super hard for me to say goodbye to Hna Pullan and even harder since she was transferred to Billinghurst with Hna Tucker!! I was SUPER jealous! But also really happy. They will have a lot of fun together. So my new companion is HERMANA JOHNSON!!! Ha ha so yup you guessed it, she is from the United States... ha ha Orem, Utah in fact. The first few days with Hna Johnson were interesting because we were also with Hna Danes, who was her trainer and also one of the hnas that I was with in the MTC. It was stressful because I had to lead them both in my area which is pretty large and I have only been here for 6 weeks but it went well and it was fun to teach with 2 other missionaries for a change.
I feel like I am really at an interesting point in my mission right now. I guess that I thought that at some point I would "arrive" or in other words feel like I was the perfect missionary. Maybe that happens for others but that is definitely not my story. I feel the more I learn, the more I know that there is so much more I need to learn. I was truly very discouraged for a few days. Then I had the chance to talk with one of the Hnas before she left to go to her house. (Interesting side note, all the Hermanas stay with us for their last few days in the mission field, ha ha it´s really fun and interesting.) She also related to me that she had felt more or less the same way. She told me that I needed to let the Atonement work in my life and that at the close of her mission she looked back and realized that although for much of the time she felt like she was failing, indeed she had not been. When she told me that I realized that I didn´t want to feel this way until the end of my mission and prayed to Heavenly Father to help me know if what I am doing is right and what I need to do to change and be better so that I can still work to be the missionary that I want to be.
As I have worked the rest of this week the sweet power of the Atonement has worked in my life and I have felt the sweet assurance that although I am not perfect, I am doing all I can to serve my Heavenly Father and He loves me. I think the biggest thing that I have learned on my mission is that of following the spirit and that was pointed out to me this week as almost every question that Hna Johnson asked me my reply was, "well Hna, we need to listen to the spirit". As I was lost in my own insecurities I forgot how wise Heavenly Father really is. He doesn´t give us all the answers, because if He did we wouldn´t need to ask Him anymore. He gives us piece by piece, and line upon line. And even though I feel as though I should know everything, I am beginning to see that the more I learn, the more I see that I don´t know anything and need to depend on the Lord even more.
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I really feel that this is a grand life lesson that I have learned that really can be applied to all. That I think that we might never in this life, well at least in the near future, feel that we have really "arrived" but that we have the loving promise of a kind Heavenly Father and a humble older Brother that as we do all that we can, they will make up the rest. If we knew everything, 1. we wouldn´t need the Atonement or Christ in our lives and 2. we wouldn´t still be here, we would be translated!!! I love the humbling experience of this life!!!
My favorite scripture of the week: 2 Nefi 28:30... even when you feel like you are going backwards just keep going!!!
30 For behold, thus saith the Lord God: I will give unto the children of men line upon line, precept upon aprecept, here a little and there a little; and blessed are those who hearken unto my precepts, and lend an ear unto my counsel, for they shall learnbwisdom; for unto him that creceiveth I will give dmore; and from them that shall say, We have enough, from them shall be taken away even that which they have.
I think about you often, pray for you always, and love you forever!
Hna Scanlon
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